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sábado, diciembre 07, 2002:
song of the day:
mariah carey feat. westside connection - irresistible
Everytime I try to leave
Something pulls me back baby. . .
happy 17th birthday fidelia!!
- one birthday after another, eh? the most amazing thing is that i haven't had ANY classes with fidelia since sophomore year and we're still really good friends. thanks, filly, for always being there for me when i needed someone to talk to, and just being a really sweet person overall. can't believe you just turned 17 - you're so young!!
- onto my day, then. woke up at 8:30, a little too early for me, although there wasn't a new episode of yu-gi-oh this morning (free at last!!) so i worked a little on my stanford app before going on aim (*dum dum dum*). and i talked to varun!! haven't talked to my indian cmu bro in the longest time. PLUS i signed up for uci classes - and guess what i'm taking: BREAKDANCE!! isn't that the coolest thing ever??
- after that, i ran off back to irvine (getting quite a bit of sleep in the van) and got there around 3 - right in time to head off to science olympiad meeting!! that was tons of fun. first we all introduced ourselves, then we went over the events - tons of random insults interspersed throughout. after that, we just did random stuff - somehow, i managed to overhear a few hilarious things. . .first, julia: "why is her house flooded like that? oh wait. is that a pool?" *applause for julia*
- ooh, and then we were doing a random science bowl, and the question was: "what is the name for a female fox?" and of course, i know NOTHING of foxes, but i somehow remembered that "vixen" is a term for uhh. . .an attractive female. . .so anyways, i buzzed in, jumped out of my chair and shouted out "VIXEN!!!" yeah, that was random - but produced quite a few chuckles from the dumbfounded peepz around me. unfortunately, that didn't quite measure up to the quote of the day, which was prompted by another science bowl question: "how many kingdoms do biologists classify life into?" i was JUST about to buzz in when si hyun buzzes in before me (he was on my team) and holds up three fingers. . .NOOOO it's FIIIIIIVE:
"si hyun you MORON!! 'koreans' is NOT a kingdom!!!"
- mwahahahaha. damn i'm mean. anyways, off to home afterwards, where my parents want to drag me to ANOTHER social event. oh no no, not this time. so instead, i spent my night chattin with kaidi (yay!!! found out sooo much about her - definitely the coolest sophomore i know) and talking to kim and anya on the phone too. just the way i like my saturday night. oOo, and and and and jean came on and told me about mira costa:
CONGRATS to kaidi and jean on their commendations! and and GOOOO david shis and david porter for their outstandings!!
- mwahaha. i love my MUN peepz. in any case, another day with plenty of fun, plus good news from MUN - makes for an overall awesome day.
Neil Biswas dreams on at
10:57 a. m. //
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viernes, diciembre 06, 2002:
song of the day: ginuwine - differences
my whole life has changed
since you came in - i knew right then. . .
happy birthday mom. =)
wow. it's quarter to midnight, and i still haven't had time to blog. which might be a good thing, i might actually getting a life now. . .
- so i woke up this morning, and basically just headed straight to school (and remembered to turn in the quote! w00t). we had this insane ap practice multiple choice exam in english, which i undoubtedly screwed up majorly. onto poli sci, where we had a test that i DID NOT STUDY FOR AT ALL. . .somehow i managed to get by okay, i think. after the test, tho, i made the first of many mistakes throughout the day:
kim: "what's a word for someone who believes men and women are equal?"
neil: ". . .wrong?"
- i don't think that was the answer she was looking for. one thing's for certain: she stole my poli sci book. i demanded that she give it back to me, but she simply instructed me to get it from mr. james (O_o;;). that sounded okay. . .next, to spanish - and here i manage to get a B on the spanish test. an 89, so not too bad, but a B nonetheless. ugh. all that these tests encompass is regurgitating stuff from the spanish book, and i still manage to get a B. i'm stupid, i tell you.
- it's time for STATS! yay. . .luckily, want actually put the homework assignment up for once, so i got through almost half of my homework assignment by the end of class. and finally. . .physics, where malin has decided to check homework. and by some miracle of god, i actually HAVE it - so he spares me a cruel and unforgiving death. after getting our lab back and finding yet another far-from-perfect score (*sigh*), i get some much-needed rest during another boring video. which brings me to:
- MUN meeting!!! tons of fun (no seriously!). i essentially mock myself, comparing the gavel i got from tustin to the UHSMUN gavel that gilkey hid from me the whole time, or explaining to the whole club how i called david porter "david potter". x_X anywho, that's my job - to make a retard of myself (it's not that hard when you start off as a retard in the first place!). ooh, and:
good luck to aditi, soo, swetha, jean, kaidi, david p., and david s. at mira costa MUN!
- after that, rui once again gets the brilliant idea of heading off to the ARC, where i manage to defeat him at ping-pong for the first time ever. of course, i promptly lose two in a row, plus rui proves that he can lift a lot more weight than i can, but that's not the point, now is it? afterwards, i realize i STILL haven't had lunch, so i go and grab some quick carl's jr. before heading off to bio lecture. and how sad!! it's my last bio lecture of the quarter. . .it was really poignant at the end, because everyone applauded the professor - it makes you kinda just wonder at how time passes by so quickly. my math lecture was also the last one, altho that wasn't QUITE as poignant - i found out i have to get at least a B on the final to keep my A in the class. great. =.=
- so then i head home, and find myself (once again) chatting. . .talked to jeNn, who had a nightmarish last night (only it wasn't a nightmare, it was real) - i was amazed she was able to even make it to class. also read leah's blog (found out i made her feel better last night! ^_^) and got to talk to adreeta and chissy. and then onto more serious matters: i engaged in a massive (albeit in retrospect, quite pointless) debate with jeff (friend from washington state) about who the best closer in the MLB is. i contended it was troy percival, while he backed up john smoltz; neither of us really won, but more importantly, we had a nice baseball chat. which is what every guy needs. xD
- at around 7:45, my dad and i decide to run to apple valley and take my mom out to dinner - which is exactly what we do. we went to an indian place, ordered garlic shrimp and lamb dopyaji (translates to "lamb with onions") - GOOD stuff. then back home, and more chatting =D: this time, a major bonding session with kaidi, who i discover to be the coolest soph ever (she's in ap chem - isn't that just freaky? science olympiad too. . .oh and of course, she's in MUN cuz that's what cool people do. so i ended up talking to her all the way up until now. . .add a few deep conversations with ely and kim, and that just about ends my day. *whew* oh, but i have one last point to make:
the lakers threw up a 44-15 fourth quarter rally to BEAT THE MAVS!!! the lake show is back!
- ah yes, that must go down as one of the greatest regular season comebacks ever. i must say, the lakers never cease to amaze me - which is why i love them so much. all in all, a very nice ending to a very nice day. nite you guys~*
Neil Biswas dreams on at
3:47 p. m. //
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jueves, diciembre 05, 2002:
song of the day: goo goo dolls - black balloon
And there's no time left for losin'
When you stand they fall. . .
ugh. it's 10 pm, and i still haven't blogged. already i'm breaking the habit. xD i'll just get to the point:
- interesting start to this morning. i remember turning off my early alarm (that one's around 6) because i wanted a little extra sleep - bad news, because i ended up waking up at a random point in the morning. by some miracle of god, it was only 8:04, so i had plenty of time to shower and get my butt to school. then to poli sci, where once again i found myself insanely bored - so i just did some physics. oh! and i got to donate some envelopes to kim's college application cause. (yay?)
- now to office hours, where we arrive at team round of mandelbrot math competition. my team ends up being steve, si hyun, rui, and me - we actually get through quite a few of the problems, and end up doing decently. last one was hella annoying tho - we played with different sequences, like -1, 1, 2. . . and 1, 1, 2. . .guess what the answer was. that's right: -1, -1, 2. . .but NO, i'm too stupid to think of that. ugh, how lame. >.>
- so from want during office hours, i head on to. . .want for 4th period. lovely. remember how on tuesday i flipped 200 coins? yeah, well, today we flipped a coin four thousand times. okay, so we got to use our calculators. . .but that doesn't make it any more pointful (for the uninitiated, "pointful" is my ingenious opposite to "pointless", seeing as there isn't any other ready antithesis). in any case, class went by fast (sneaky want didn't put up the homework assignment tho, so i have stats hw - boo). . .
- lunchtime! and i have no sixth period! so i get to. . .DO ANOTHER MATH COMPETITION. T_T;; that's right, back to want for calculus league. and i managed to screw this one up, missing the last one because i can't seem to associate points of inflection with second derivatives. bleah - my brain was fried anyhow. afterwards, an interesting discussion with steve and rui about whether mathematics is part of science; mathematics is very concrete, while science is based on observation. . .etcetera. and then to UP where i tutored natalya, and finally at 3ish i get to GO HOME. w00t.
- at this point i have become resolute on changing my blog layout; so right away, i got to screwing around with photoshop. dolli tried to help me make SOME sense of what i'm doing, and i actually started getting creative when - doorbell!! who else but ANYA shows up at my door; she's managed to stay at schoool all the way until that point doing science fair. so naturally, i scrap everything i'm doing and go out for a ride - we don't go very far, basically just to her house, but no matter - at that point, i put my life in her hands:
i let anya drive my car.
X_x;;; actually it was fine, i'm making a bigger deal of it than it really was, but it's more fun that way. we ended up just going in a circle, because it was almost 5, and there was a really pretty sunset out. so we went out to watch it for a while, and then i had to run off to my uci class. guess what class? math. even MORE math. this time, the quiz actually COUNTED for points - luckily, it was really easy and didn't take much time (although rui DID make a point of it to finish the quiz in UNDER a minute - our TA was looking at him funnily grammar note: "funny" is wrong, must have an adverb xD). afterwards, i went back home, where i got caught on sychronizing all my e-mail accounts under outlook express (that's actually four: my hotmail one, my UCI one, my YCY one, and my cox one). and basically, i chatted or screwed around with computer stuff all the way until now. . .and for the second straight night, i engage in the world's most meaningless chat room with kim, bui (once you see the rest of the members, see if you can figure out how they don't belong), kunal, jay, shyla, and pooja. trust me - absolute mayhem.
- last note: story of the day from anya: upon getting home, she realized her grandma was mad at her. why? apparently:
"i know what you did: instead of coming home, you went on a date with that boyfriend neil of yours. . ."
oh boy. -.- this can't be good. i have a ukrainian grandmother coming after me, thinking i'm a potential grandson-in-law. . .ANYWAYS, i should probably study for that poli sci test i have tomorrow. hehehehe. oh, and my mom's birthday tomorrow too. must deal with that too (filly's birthday day after!!). =) and must surprise jeNn. . .MUN meeting tomorrow!!! i get to show off my gavel. xP tomorrow shall be a nice day. . .peace out~*
Neil Biswas dreams on at
4:12 p. m. //
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miércoles, diciembre 04, 2002:
song of the day: trust company - running from me
she doesn't care anymore either. . .
w00t! and another long tiring day finally comes to an end. okay, so let's check out today - a rather interesting day, with tons to say (you've been warned!):
- alrighty, so in first period, mrs. stearns gave me hamlet's role at the beginning of class for act iii. and then. . .we end up WATCHING the "to be or not to be" speech. great. and then there's the part where hamlet starts ranting on ophelia - and we watched that on video too. =.= FINALLY, near the end, where hamlet is about to kill claudius, i get to read - mwahahahahahaha, as usual i overdramatize but that's OKAY, cuz i'm neil. xD (as a side note, dolli brought up an awesome point today: isn't the "miniature" porky pig from tiny toons named hamlet? LOL!)(update at 11:07 - chissy just owned me. . .it's HAMPTON, not hamlet, on tiny toons -.- GO CHISS)
- soooo on to office hours, and i'm out for redemption against math after screwing up CML yesterday. so today was individual round of mandelbrot, which by sheer luck i ended up being high scorer last time. (sheer luck because i actually suck completely at math contests, i just like to pretend i'm as good as si hyun or steve) anyways, through more incredible luck i manage to miss only one, which is cool cuz i get to be part of the "official" team round tomorrow, where once again i shall prove to the world (and the other members of my team) that i su><012z at math.
- onwards! now i'm in spanish. . .and calkins isn't here, so i decide to be lame and don't accomplish ANYTHING. as a clarification, i have this weird addiction to doing my spanish hw on the computer - hehehehe. anyways, so for the most part i basically chat with shyla, try to figure out the problem i missed on mandelbrot. . .and develop a tremendously large stomachache which keeps me out of class for 20 minutes and prompts both shyla and and tanuka to ask me what in the world i was doing for so long. =.=
- LUNCHTIME! that's terrible news because i suck and i haven't finished my physics lab. well, not printing it out, at least. i run home and print it out, and run back to the CSF meeting just in enough time to chirp in my two cents, and then physics follows. physics. . .was incredibly fast, because we had the shortest lab ever. and DAMN i forgot to turn in the quote today, if anyone who's reading this really cares about me and would like to remind me tomorrow to turn it in, that'd be lovely. (oh boy, somehow i feel like that one statement will garner me a billion comments tomorrow). right - back to physics - so anyways, most of the period was chatting with nessa/jeri/steve and screwing around, occasionally feeling bad for nessa and actually doing the lab with her. =P funniness:
Dolli got CAUGHT stealing the newspaper. h3h3h3h3.
- wow i'm mean. aaaanyways, so after school i run over to try to meet kim, but she doesn't like me very much so she ran away. (actually, she called me later tonight and cited "traffic" as her alibi - i don't believe her one iota) so i grabbed HC pics by myself. . .a good thing, because the stupid peace symbol mrs. seager drew on my hand when i entered ended up showing brilliantly on the pic. *sigh* how lame - i'll scan it in and embarrass myself in front of you all if kim doesn't mind. to be honest, she looks very pretty in the picture, i must say. =) and then. . .i tutored natalya for a while before heading off to uci. . .
- where i couldn't resist my hunger and went to rice garden and ate way too much. this will be a problem later. ok, so after another entertaining lecture from my physio professor (this time, it was on female reproductive system), i came away with this aphorism:
larger breasts don't mean larger mammary glands; they just mean more fat in that region.
- great. just great. the point of that being, we guys can't justify our attraction to "big boobs" because we think it's better for our children. >.> i won't even comment on that, except to say i find large umm. . .mammary gland regions kinda repulsive. oops i commented. . .math lecture went by SUPER fast, after which i found out i had the highest grade in the class - somehow i know that CAN'T be right, because rui beat me on the midterm and. . yeah. . .but hey, at least i still have a chance at an A in the class. that definitely made me feel better.
- and then rui has the brilliant idea of going to ARC. remember, i'm still insanely full from rice garden. two and a half hours later, after weightlifting, badminton, volleyball, ping pong, pullups and situps, and basketball, i feel like absolute crap and i feel like i never want to eat again. so here i sit, spending what should be dinner time just blogging away. wow this is way too addictive. . .
chissy showed me her senior pics today!! they're really pretty. oOo, and got to talk to versha again today =); that was nice. steve too!! keepin' it real with my AV peepz. and and good news - i think feffi will host my site!!! mwahaha - so i can actually screw with this layout a little bit - then again, i'd have to change my URL. . .is www.feffi.net/virtualinsanity too long? O_o;;; anyways, as a last note, i'd like to thank YOU, yes you who are reading this, for actually reading this entire blog entry. you have amazing patience. . .and free time. but yes, i appreciate you. =)
Neil Biswas dreams on at
3:29 p. m. //
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martes, diciembre 03, 2002:
song of the day: ll cool j feat. amerie - "paradise"
as of today, i've stopped caring. . .
mostly another nondescript day - nothing too exciting. in english, this man came in from a tv documentary called "do you speak american?" and basically we talked about slang. so, of course, i bring up "fo shizzle my nizzle" and he asks me what it is. . .and i have no idea. i really don't! to be totally honest, tiff told me after school that it means "fo sho, my n****". i s'pose that works. xD brought up "w00t" and "r0x0rz" too - and most of my class just stared at me. non-hax012z. kunal will sympathize.
poli sci was same old, except for a classic quote from kim:
"I really like having Kunal behind me."
well said, miss tran. anywho, spanish was same as always, and then came stats. and guess what we did. we flipped coins. not once, not twice. no, we flipped a coin TWO HUNDRED TIMES. why? because want finds it productive. . .and then in physics, a problem that i had been obsessing over all day because my answer was off by 0.05 N (i'm a nerd, no use in attacking me for it) ended up being stupid. >.>
didn't have to tutor today, so just cleared the rest of my rec requests (YAY!) and then helped anya with calc before going to class. . .then when i got back, got calls from TWO underclassmen, both my MUN peepz (look at me, i'm hanging with freshies and sophs). actually, the latter was kinda not-so-awesome, because she first had an MUN question then asked about olympiad, and i found out she really wanted to be on the team but somehow didn't get to be interviewed on one day and then never got it rescheduled. so that made me feel stupid - i'm trying to get her one of the last spots now. =P
and that's about it. oOo! talked to adreeta today for the first time in a LONG time. yay! i should stop rambling now - but before i do, i shall end with this news flash:
the L.A. Dodgers are planning to trade their starting first and second basemen for a backup catcher. brilliant, no? and to finish it off, they're going to GIVE MONEY to the team they're trading them to. does that make any sense to anyone? please?
P.S. quick MUN rant too. found out today that not only did we get a crappy country like sweden, but we didn't get ANY security council spots, PLUS our position for crisis sim is "communications minister for greece". that's such crap - why didn't you just assign me the janitor of the u.s. - i would've preferred that. oh, i forgot to mention CML today at lunch. . .screwed up two rather easy problems (HELLO, divisibility by 9 is simply seeing if the digits of a number add up to a multiple of 9, everyone seems to know that but me cuz i'm a retard), so i think i just shot myself in the foot for THAT contest. also found out i (apparently) bombed santa barbara, so i am on a definite hot streak. . .great. . .
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lunes, diciembre 02, 2002:
frustration mounting. . .
i'm starting to give up on a few people who just don't seem to care about me anymore. whatever. go on and keep telling me about your better friendships with other people. i thought i meant more to you.
positivity!! i'd like to take this to say rui is most definitely cool. =D ok, so today, after math class, he gives me a ride back to my car, and demands that i take one of two pairs of sunglasses that he bought at this UCI flea-markey thingy they had today. i vehemently refused a billion times, almost to the point where i felt like i was making him feel bad, but that was sooooooo nice of him. just wanted to say that.
then again, he DID buy a karaoke machine over the weekend. a KARAOKE machine. RUI. my thoughts exactly.
in other news, an awesome story from human physiology class today: (quick background tho - in human body, sympathetic system controls you when you're like "active" and doin stuff, and parasympathetic system controls you when you're relaxing and all)
alrighty, so our professor is lecturing on erections (lovely isn't it?) and mentions that it's odd that the parasympathetic system, rather than the sympathetic system, controls erections. to help us memorize that, he tells us a story. sooooo let's say there's this guy. and uhhh he's making out with his girlfriend. and things are going well. like, past 2nd base, past 3rd base. so the guy and the girl go into her bedroom, and he's getting an erection. (side note: if i've grossed you out by this point, i sincerely apologize. . .but GROW UP - sex happens, people) Suddenly. . .
THE GIRLFRIEND's HUSBAND STORMS IN THE ROOM TOTING A SHOTGUN. and our professor booms this out loudly, waking up anyone who was still asleep by this point, and completely throwing everyone out of their seats. so where does sympathetic and parasympathetic fit into all of this? well it's obvious - when the husband walks in, the guy completely pees in his pants, and his sympathetic system kicks in and puts him into action. and, of course, he LOSES HIS ERECTION. so since he lost his erection with the sympathetic system, he must have gained it with the parasympathetic system.
AM I THE ONLY PERSON WHO THINKS THAT STORY WAS COMPLETELY WRONG?!?!?!?!
aaaanyways - i'm currently having a really nice conversation with versha, who should be mad at me for not hanging out with her this weekend. >_< sorry!! blame steve. =D in any case, i have FOUR math competitions this week - that's just sucky. ugh. there go my lunches AND my office hours. PLUS i have a math final next week, AND a bio final, AND i have a physics lab due wednesday, AND i have stanford apps due soon, AND. . .
you get the point. i'll stop complaining now. MUN is going well! quite a few people signed up for most recent conference - somehow, i derive happiness from that, considering i AM the pres. btw, three straight days of blogging. i am definitely getting used to this. =)
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*sigh*
at this very instant, i'm actually glad i have this blog. obviously the blog won't talk back to me, and give the advice i'm so desperately seeking, but at least i can pretend it's listening to me.
why do i try so hard to continue things that don't have a chance? in specific, friendships. i hold on so tightly to friendships that are pretty much long gone - i can't bear the thought of them ending. in essence, it's like i always wish things were like they were before. maybe i'm stuck in the past. i dunno. i try not to make a big deal about it, but it always ends up being painfully obvious. especially when the other person tries to make it seem like everything's okay - it's obviously not. . .the second i try to maybe hang out or do something with them, the mere idea of it is completely unacceptable and the whole thing blows up in my face and i'm back to square one.
why do i even try?
i sit here, at 11:30ish sunday night, with still a physics lab to do, college apps stuff to do, and a lit journal to organize - all of which i easily could have finished in the 5 hours since i've gotten back from apple valley. so who am i fooling? of COURSE i can't concentrate with this stuff on my mind. it just bugs me - and just proves the fact that i'm way too attached to my friends. i realized something tonight - if i'm going to have any chance of making it at stanford, or harvard, or MIT, i'm going to have to learn to live without my friends. i mean, save anya and steve, i don't have any people who i consistently see anymore. . .
maybe i should, tho. just concentrate more on myself, and less on other people. it's really not that hard - citing the above two examples, one's leaving in a month and the other lives in apple valley, where i only see myself every two weeks at best. so all i really need to do is stop pretending i'm such good friends with everyone and just chat to the occasional person on aim or whatever, and instead just pretend i'm okay being alone most of the time.
the only reason i'm making such a big deal of this all is it's christmas time. christmas 2002, you guys. last chance. last chance to rekindle old friendships, last chance to keep the ones i have. a year from now, 90% of the people i consider my friends i won't even talk to. there are two birthdays coming up, dec. 31, jan 4.- ironic that they fall so close to each other - but those dates are my last chances.
and in all truth, even my present friendships seem to be fading fast. far too many of them seem based entirely on presence, and i feel like once i go off to college i'll never talk to them again. seeing emmo on thursday was the best i've felt in a really long time, at least since august.
anyways, mom's birthday coming up this friday. i should at least make her feel special. maybe, somehow, it'll return the favor.
Neil Biswas dreams on at
12:15 a. m. //
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